Updated: Mar 8
You know that saying “I’m only human?” Well, when I’m mentally vibing on a higher frequency I tell myself that’s just an excuse not to be as great as I know I truly can be. Today I started to feel discouraged and frustrated and I told myself “its ok Goldie, your only human” and then my Higher Self said “nah, you should be past all that”. But I wasn’t.
I still struggle sometimes with my past beliefs and it’s not easy walking in two worlds; especially when my physical reality doesn’t reflect all the promises that The Most High has made to me. That is why it is so important for me to fully innerstand that what I perceive as “time” doesn’t really exist. It’s the one thing that mentally handicaps me. I start to feel like things aren’t happening in the time that I think it should. So I’m left with feelings of anxiety and pressure that I can’t really explain to anyone….. I just know that for some reason I’m in my feelings……………because of time.
I went for a drive to not only put things into perspective but to go to The Most High about my anxieties or let’s call them uncertainties or no, how about fears. That’s probably more accurate. It’s a fear of not knowing. I see the goal clear as day but it’s the in between that I have fears about. Wondering will this even work out, Why is everything taking so long, etc.
After I vented I had an image in my mind of this particular location that I frequent ALOT in many of my dreams. The only way I can describe it is as a hotel building or a gigantic apartment building. Out of all the things that I dreamt about it was odd that the location was all that was popping up in my head. I PAID attention to the car that was in front of me and the license plate said Jon 14. So I looked it up ….
Jesus Comforts His Disciples14 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God[a]; believe also in me. 2 My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? 3 And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. 4 You know the way to the place where I am going.”
I’m getting chills just reliving the moment I read the scripture. Location was the message… the uncertainty that I had just 2 minutes before was all gone. I dropped my frequency but The Most High lifted me back up. Not only reminding me of where I was headed but reminding me who assisted me to get there……..to be continued.
It is February of 2020 and I have arrived in the location that I dreamed of when I initially wrote this post; about 2 years later. I currently reside in those apartments with all those rooms ❤️