Updated: Mar 8
I started off by sharing my first conscious experience with the Most High.I was taken on a spiritual journey that often resembled an active roller coaster that was attached to a runaway train.
There were so many experiences that I did not innerstand but I knew I had to go through in order to get to what I believed was truth. Like leaving my job, leaving my family and friends and adopting a new way of innerstanding. Every moment was/is scary but truly necessary.
There were two pauses on my journey where after everything I had experienced and after everything that I have sacrificed I realized that I am that Source that I was searching for.
The first pause was extremely religious. I was heavily indoctrinated with Jesus. So much so that like I said previously, I started to experience the same things he went threw just from a different vantage point. It was as if I had discovered myself as a man in a different moment in time. He represented the search for truth and life just on another level. I looked at it in the same perspective of why I am writing these posts; to guide reflections of myself into truth and no longer live a zombiefied existence but to have life and life more abundantly.
The second pause arrived once I shed my religious beliefs and ventured into the scientific. I literally woke up one day with a weird craving for scientific gnoledge related to the periodic table, the universe, alchemy, etc. I even took up a chemistry course to learn more. I found out that not only are we made up of the same elements that the earth and entire universe is made out of but I can see personality traits within each element.
I was fortunate enough to have been given a nickname from the moment I entered this realm; Goldie. When I researched what elements are attracted to gold and what elements are repelled; I could literally put faces on those elements. I am a product of some super amazing alchemy. Which goes back to the beginning when the conversation was had to make them in our image and likeness. I had to come through the source that made that statement. We are all one in the same; just experiencing something from a different perspective. And on a larger scale of consciousness you can draw that conclusion about everything that is made out of the same thing we are made out of.
Which in the end leads you right back to you! I am the trees, I am the Sun, I am the Universe….. I am me …….I AM.
After the first pause came heavy emotions, disappointment, fear, confusion, a whole host of weird feelings. I felt like I was going to burn in hell for even thinking I was God. I even blamed myself for “not doing it right”. Maybe I’m just not a good worshipper is what I thought. But I also felt a slight wave of relief. There is so much emphasis on the word slight. Just as quick as I felt it, it was as if the fear that I had been programmed to carry around for so long was beating the crap out of that slight feeling of relief.
When the second pause came I was relieved, lighter, wiser had a better level of innerstanding. I was happy to know that I am in charge of my reality in so many ways that no one else could ever innerstand. There are forces in higher realms that assist me; but that works both ways too. What I do affects them and vice versa. That is why I am now tasked with being consciously aware of myself and my surroundings (look beyond the veil) and my vibration.
This realm that we are in is a low form of vibration so almost consider it like I was living backwards. It reminds me of an episode of SpongeBob when it was opposite day. In my lowest form of vibration I am not at my best but in my highest I am the complete opposite of that. That higher frequency is life and life more abundantly.
Is it a coincidence that John 14:7 states If you really know me, you will know my Creator as well. From now on, you do know and have seen.”
147 just happens to be the numbers of my flight day 7 1 4 ……and you guys know that I don’t believe in coincidences only truth.
to be continued..