Updated: Jun 16
John 8:3 – John 8:11″The lady caught in adultery”
This is a parable about when ”I am” was caught in adultery and bought before the Temple Gates to pretty much be publicly shamed aka stoned. If you are not familiar with the text you should check it out. It will put everything into context. So before Self unlocks this parable let’s start off with a few questions to think about.
What did the Self write in the sand?
”I am” can’t commit adultery by alone so where were the men?
Why did the crowd disperse from oldest to youngest?
What is meant by “they slipped away slowly”
This entire scene is actually a glimpse into the Kingdom or Higher realm (inner world) that ”I am” can not see with the two eyes working in conjunction with the physical realm (outer world) that Self can visibly see.
”I am” approached the gates in June of 2016 and pleaded to be released from her accusers. The petition was granted and the Most High went into isolation until ”I am” saw what was really inside and came to terms with that truth; not traditions not heresy but truth. It was only then that ”I am” was able to evolve freely and become the author of Self’s life story.
”I am” entered the gates and all she could hear were the accusations. “She is a cheater!” “A whore!”. ” A liar and a horrible person” “She is on drugs and unfit to be a mother!” ”I am” couldn’t even get to her heart because the accusers were so loud. So what did Self do? She came down and “started to write in the dust”. Whenever my hands or fingers are being used it’s to manipulate clay aka stoned or dusty hearts.
Before ”I am” could get to my heart the Self had to deal with the memories first by showing me my sins….one by one, molding my heart and showing me my true reflection. You know, those things that are just between you and The Most High… some people call them skeletons.
Once ”I am” saw her sins they could not torment her any longer . The “accusers” are not just the physical beings ”I am” had around me but my memories as well….that’s why the oldest left before the youngest because it was my past that was constantly haunting me.
In the physical realm; the one ”I am” sees with the eyes…the accusers had to wait their turn to be shown their sins. The Creator wasn’t trying to embarrass them or make a mockery out of them as they were trying to do to me.
Once some of the “chatter” died down, Self called to me like she called to Atom when he tried to hide in the garden. ”I am” was hiding from the past memories that weren’t even true.
Hiding my true feelings to be with the person that ”I am” truly loved, hiding from the guilt of potentially breaking someone else’s heart the way mine once was. ”I am” was hiding from the resentment that built up within Self because ”I am” actually started to believe the accusations. Self said ” Goldie come to me and show me who is accusing YOU.”
So the last question ”I am” must now ask is who are you?
The definition of you is ” the second person”; the second person is defined as a character in a play or story……the observer aka the Higher Self.
Self helped me innerstand that every person around me is me, a character in my life story that reflects back to me how ”I am” views the Self or to be a little more clear my level of thinking.
Once ”I am” truly saw who the Higher Self was; those memories faded away…..slowly and ”I am” began to love Self. No longer could ”I am” find one accuser. When the Self said ” now go and sin no more”, the sin was my previous mindset…the guilt, resentment and pain.
To walk in truth ”I am” has to gno Self AND love Self. I know it sounds cliche but it’s true. Even the things ”I am” may not like about Self… own it and over time my mindset will change.
All of the things mentioned above did not happen in a day. It’s called the level up for a reason. Everyday ”I am” either goes higher or lower… the choice is up to me. ”I am” can believe those old painful memories that constantly try to tell me that ”I am” is never gonna be better than who ”I am” right now or ”I am” can believe in my Higher Self that is telling me the best hasn’t even come yet and in the meantime…I’m perfect just the way ”I am”.
Does ”I am” have everything figured out? Nope! Do people still judge me? Yup. But, remember the accusers left slowly….. they will see me when they are supposed to. In the meantime ”I am” is focused on my goals free from any mental bondage or limitations.