X-Rated

When I think about having sex; the idea kind of bores me. I don’t mean that I’m not able to “enjoy” it because I am; however I feel like I have evolved past that and it’s a very odd feeling. I decided to write about it because at this point I can’t really pick and choose what to share- especially if it involves my evolution.

I was in meditation today and all I kept thinking about was sex and how much I want it but not like I’m used to having it. Then it was almost like a slideshow of me seeing myself engaging in different positions, the sounds of me whispering certain phrases during sex and then each word turned into a form of matter and started to turn into something solid. If I’m in the middle of a high energetic exchange yelling “fuck me”- then that is what we are creating. The opportunity to be fucked. How can I love myself by asking another being to “fuck me”? How is he loving himself by “fucking me?” Why do I even use those words?? All that aggression, false compassion..... living inside of me

After I saw all of that, I literally spoke ” I am yearning for sexual evolution“. I wrote a post awhile back entitled “How to have sex the right way”, and I was able to see the things that I am looking to evolve past.

Instead of positions that put me or my partner in low vibrational frequencies, I want us to be aware of form, frequency and the impact of the environment before we engage in any exchange of energy. Instead of whispering words of aggression, I want to speak and hear affirmations that will bring forward the dance of our soul.

I‘m not being too unrealistic am I? I understand that there will be times where the mood just strikes and for my flame I’m down... however my souls purpose is to evolve and that is much more important than anything in the physical.