Updated: Apr 7
Yesterday I felt like I was on top of the world; I spent time with family and friends and I was able to prepare a meal for them which is something that I love doing. I wrote a lot yesterday and I was able to reach some amazing points within my innerverse. I even heard the innerverse calling me by name all day yesterday. The musical notes of self were playing the sweetest song I ever heard- my song; which is my true name. Isn’t it amazing that it can’t even be uttered? We all are associated with a sound or frequency that is similar to a music note- together we make up the symphony of the cosmos. However, that is not what this entry is about; so we will get more into that later.
As I traveled last night I was all over the cosmos, I saw myself experiencing pure joy- taking my vessel ‘off road” to experience things that I only dreamed of doing. Then today happened….. I woke up with a really odd headache, I felt crappy like emotional wise. I am not really dealing with anything in my life that will bring on sadness so I was trying to figure out what could it be. I was feeling stagnant, like I am not accomplishing anything and I felt like giving up. My job is to be me everyday without any doubt and as easy as that sounds it can be hard at times. Just think about it..... do you consciously set your intentions everyday to be the best version of self possible? And I am not referring to what the "system" thinks you should be which is just some sort of worker ant, who follows whatever their leader says. I am talking about basking in the fullness of your true essence.
I keep a sketch book that I have named “My book of creation” and I use it to create every moment in my life (this is how I stay on top of cause and effect); I track my cycles, my sleep patterns, my sneeze patterns, etc. As I was flipping through it to find some insight on why I was feeling this way- because regardless of “how I am feeling” the truth is, I created this moment so let’s find the reason. I found a page that has the words BREAKTHROUGH written really big and the words:
“Happiness leads to sadness – joy leads to pain…stay neutral because the pendulum swings both ways”
And there I have it; last night when I went “off road” I really did experience joy so it is only right that I now experience a degree of sadness. The good thing about degrees is that they have to be earned and with that perspective my sadness is not even a bad thing but a gift to be able to experience both sides of the coin. Another little thing that I do with my creation book is I stay on top of the day to make sure that my frequency is the most dominating frequency that my innerverse is being exposed to.
My date of arrival into this realm is July 14th; July being the 7th month, that is how many days it takes for me to create and the number 14 is how long it takes for me to harvest. According to the calendar in this realm today is December 20, I should be harvesting my seeds from December 6…..
On December 6th, I wrote “look up the meaning of 265 and connect”. Here is the meaning:
More often than not you may be faced with so many challenges in life that will put you at the point of giving up. The message is for you to look at the bright side of life. 265 comprises of individual number symbolism. Number 2 is all about foresight; being able to think and plan for the future. Your capabilities; what you are able to do and apply. Using your skills, knowledge and talents as well as trusting and listening to your inner voice. Numbers 6 is about being above reproach that is by being an honest person in all your undertakings. It is also about increase in wealth both material and monetary, finding balance through your family and providence.
Number 5 is about the decisions you make that will affect your life either positively or negatively. Being able to change with the times and adapting accordingly and the Karmic lessons learnt through the experiences that you go through Number 26 is telling you to be prudent in all your undertakings and association with other people. Work jointly with others so as to go far. Number 65 is about change, embrace the new things that are happening in your life because it is the beginning of greater things that are going to happen to you.
Number 25 is about flexibility; embrace whatever new things or changes that are going on around you. Don’t be stuck in the old ways of doing things. Be open to try new things for your own good. Endurance is the message from number 265 symbolism. Don’t quit but hold on until you achieve what you desire, no matter how tough the times might be.